Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Ever get such a blow?

I am in tears, non-stop tears. I never thought that I'd be crying for this reason. Ever. But here I am tonight in my room crying my eyes out and sniffling like a blubbering idiot.

I have come to find out why I was never told about any school functions or activities. Turns out my 15 year is completely embarrassed of me, his mother. He says kids say stuff about me because I am OLD and wear heels, plus whatever else he said because at that point I couldn't hear anymore as I was trying to catch my breath from such a blow. He acts like if I were in my 60's trying to dress like a 20 year old. I'm 35 dammit I know that's not young but it's not OLD either!! He says he's not embarrassed of me but he is because otherwise he wouldn't beg and plead for me not to go to his school performance. He would tell those assholes to suck it and not beg me not to attend his functions. I guess he wants me to dress in dirty sweats and flip flops like the other mothers do?

I don't know, but I never thought I'd feel as shitty as I feel right now, this moment. Never.

Monday, September 26, 2011

Wow, it's been SO LONG...

I can't believe that it's been so long since my last post. I have had pneumonia and several health set backs in these past months plus my life has been turned upside down in a way. There has been way to many changes in my life that I have felt all Topsy turvey and I am just now adjusting to it.

I have been staying home and my shopping has slowed down drastically. I still shop but I can no longer afford the luxury's that I used to. It makes me sad.

Mr. Man had a change at his company and he now works overnight which throws me off because when I get up to take the boys to school he gets home and takes the bedroom over to sleep and so I have to dress, do my make up and pretty much everything else downstairs. He then has to leave for work just before the boys get out of school (the boys get out at 4pm now) so he can go days without seeing them.

We have just had a bad year so far and I can't wait for it to go away. I am glad that there are only a few months left.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Am I the only one?


I saw this picture on The Chloe Conspiracy and I ached. I don't watch Mad Men so it's not because of that, but I LOVE the old glamour of the 40's-early 60's. I see pictures and movies of that era and I long for the hats, gloves and the slinky dresses. I also love that the men look so dapper and well groomed, a huge comparison to today. I myself won't walk out the door without doing my make-up or hair and well, dressed up. I am often teased because I am getting "dressed up" to go to the Home Depot. I'm sorry, but I just can't do it. I see people out and about in sweats (or PJ bottoms) and slippers and I wonder why they do so. Don't they care about their appearance or the image that they are presenting?

Slumming it, for me, is wearing jeans and a t-shirt. For example, on Sunday's to watch the game I wear jeans and my jersey but with heeled boots. I feel so "under dressed". Not for the locale or occasion but for myself. Mr.Man would love it if all I ever wore was jeans, t-shirts and Chucks or Vans. But I can't, it's just not me.

Oh well, it appears I was born in the wrong era.